Searching for balance

It feels like everything and nothing has happened since my last post. I have been working my ass off at Madison's. Walking away from a night shift behind the bar with $220 in cash is an awesome feeling, and I am living every day with a sense of purpose to save up $5,000 before I depart for Morocco on September 9th (yes, the flight has officially been purchased!). On the flipside, though, my growing preoccupation with work has had side effects on other areas of my life. Most of all, I have found myself becoming increasingly cheap and greedy. I am so aware of how every moment of my life translates into monetary terms that I rarely even indulge on something as minor as a $4 smoothie. As you can imagine, this is also taking its toll on Nick, who has to put up with it most, on top of the fact that I am rarely ever home to spend any QT with him - our schedules are virtually opposite. Indeed, my greed was such that I even considered pushing back the date of my departure for Morocco to stay in SB and earn more money. When each night carries a price tag of $200+, its hard to convince yourself to do anything but work.
Last night, after not working out for almost a week (too cheap to pay for a gym membership), I went to a somewhat difficult yoga class. I surprised myself with my flexibility, but was reminded of a problem that has always plagued me - I have very bad balance. And I wondered if it wasn't a metaphor for my life as a whole. I am very happy; so blessed and lucky in life as much as I like to complain. But I always let the problem/situation/topic at hand dominate my perspective and keep me from being properly attentive to the other aspects of my life.
Working at Madison's every day has kept my attention fixed on making as much money as possible to get me going on my journey. But to allow that focus to let me forsake everything else in my life is surely not the proper M.O. for happiness.
I have often asked myself what it is that I am seeking, what it is that I hope to find on my Vision Quest. And I think that all of this experience has showed me that certainly, at the top of that list, my Vision Quest should be an attempt to figure out how to find balance - and to actively live that balance every day.